I constantly feel like my parents look past my achievements but emphasize my mistakes, faults, and imperfections.

Now that I’m in the 10th grade, the subject of after-high-school-plans are coming up more often and the conversation often ends up with me in a horrible mood.

My dad doesn’t give me choices.  He states I have to do this and that, and I know he has good intentions but he comes off being brash and blunt.  I’m already following the forced career of pursuing something in the medical field, but that isn’t even enough.  He wants me to join the military for three years, and I really don’t want to be in the military.

I already don’t want to be a doctor, but I know it’s the only guaranteed way of me surviving this society.

My parents think I need further discipline and aren’t very confident in me getting a good scholarship that’ll support me enough for college.  They may have underestimated my ability to over-think things way too deeply, and way too pessimistically.  The fact that they’re thinking of back up plans, not opportunities, about college shows me that they’re doubting my ability to be successful.  They’re not confident with my chances of getting worthy scholarships.

I just hate being depressed over how much they think of me as a future failure.  I try my best.